Yes, I’ve seen him after what happened and,
surprisingly, I did not feel anything. Perhaps because I was with G. already or
perhaps because we desperately needed to make love just one time in order to
know how it was.
Something strange happened last year, though. We had to meet due to the death of a former classmate (E). The
circumstances were particularly difficult as we met at E’s house with his
parents. Of course we were all very moved and sad but I didn’t fail to notice
two things:
1) We haven’t seen each other (and haven’t
heard from each other) for more than 13 years. He called me 3 times that day
for stupid things like a) Hi, it’s me. I’m waiting for you all at …. Where are you? b) I’m still here..
where the hell are you? c) hi, are you going home? Ok… just asking…well, bye
then. That day, speaking to a friend of mine, he said that he was surprised
because I haven’t changed over the years while he has changed (which, by the
way, it’s not true).
2) After that day, we planned a dinner all
together. I wrote him several emails (I was in charge of the overall
organization) and he never got back to me. A friend (who knows the GG’s story)
offered to write him saying that he was probably too embarrassed to come to a
dinner with me. She wrote him and GG. replied right away: I am sorry but I
can’t. After a few months, another dinner … same thing: the answer is no via
common friends, he never replies directly to me.
He doesn’t want to see me again. He doesn’t
want to be in touch with me.
…
I don’t know what to think about it, to be
honest.
Any ideas?!
